| Location | Surrey |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Genetic Condition |
| Date of Birth | 08/08/1998 |
| Date of Death | 07/08/1998 |
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Ciara's Story, (Stillborn at 40 weeks & 3 days).
My husband and I met in 1984, introduced by a mutual friend. We started seeing each other in '85 and we found we had a lot in common. After 7 years, we decided to get married, as we both felt ready to start a family. Six months later, we decided to try for a family and, much to our amazement, we were successful on our first attempt.We were over the moon & when I visited my GP he said "I wouldn't tell too many people yet, as it's early days - 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in miscarriage". I came away feeling very upset, and couldn't believe how blunt he'd been. However, he was proven right, and in my 11th week, I miscarried our baby. At my 6 week check up the Dr. told me there was nothing wrong genetically, and that we were just unlucky. We were both devastated and it took us a year to feel ready to try again. I consoled myself with the statistics, and convinced myself that everything woud be alright next time. We tried again and I got pregnant, but once again, I lost our second baby at 8 weeks. Although physically it wasn't as bad as the first, mentally it was worse. I asked myself all the questions, why me? why again? Once again we were told we were unlucky, just keep trying.For the next 2 years we tried and nothing happened. The more you want something, the less chance it will happen.
Finally after 2 years I fell pregnant! I had a fantastic pregnancy and never felt better - no morning sickness or any problems. I was monitored at the hospital more than normal, because of having had 2 miscarriages, and once I got past 8 weeks, then 11 weeks, then 28 weeks, I felt I was home and dry. Even if our baby was born early, it could survive - they can do amazing things these days. The last 2 weeks dragged as it does for all expectant mothers and we couldn't wait to meet our baby.
Our baby was due on 2nd of August and I was seen at the hospital when I was 3 days overdue, for a check up with the consultant. At the check up they said my blood pressure was up, but only marginally - nothing to worry about.To be on the safe side, they asked me to come in again the following day, and it was back to normal.Whilst there the mid-wife did a heart trace on my baby and she commented on what a strong heart beat my baby had - all very re-assuring.
The following day, I was pottering around at home when I realised that Ciara had been very quiet. I didn't think much of it at first, as I'd read that babies sometimes quieten down before the birth, but, as the day wore on, I began to worry when I didn't get kicked as I usually did. By the time Brian got in from work I was really anxious and I said I wanted to go to the hospital to re-assure myself that everything was alright. Something just didn't feel right! The mid-wife tried to hear a heartbeat, but she struggled, and when they wheeled in a portable scanner, I realised our worst nightmare was about to come true. There was nothing they could say to make things better - Ciara had died inside me.
The next few hours were a blur, as we had to go home to get my bags and we had to tell our families that our baby was gone. We then had to endure a 16 hour induced labour, where Ciara got stuck and they had to drag her out using forceps which cut deep scars into her little cheeks. Our beautiful much wanted daughter was dead. The staff were wonderful and treated us, and our baby with great sensitivity, but I cannot describe how we felt. Even now writing this 11 years later still makes me cry. Thank God we had each other and our families for support. We had to wait for 10 days before we could have Ciara cremated, as they wanted to do a post mortem to try and find out why she died. The results were inconclusive, and they said she was completely normal and she weighed a good 8lbs. They put it down to cot death, but in the womb - she simply stopped breathing! We took her ashes home to Ireland to our family summer home, where we planted a tree to her memory, so she would always be a part of our family.
I wanted to start this memorial as a tribute to her, and although it's been nearly 11 years, we have never forgotten her and still miss her and who she might have been. Gone but never forgotten our precious little girl.
(I have a few photo's of Ciara but I find them too distressing to look at as both myself and her Dad look devastated in them. Also she had deep scars where the forceps cut into her little cheeks as they dragged her out and I can't bear to look at her hurt face. I chose the photo I have put on her memorial as that is how I see her in my mind and she is my shining star).
Love you always xx
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THE BROKEN HEART FEELS PAIN
I have always thought that a Broken heart
Was just a figure of speech
That the heart doesn’t truly break,
It’s just the words we speak.
And then my loved one went away,
Up to the Heaven’s to stay
I found that heartbreak was no lie,
My heart truly felt the pain!
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~♥ With Love ♥~
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Think of me
When you walk out into the cold wind of winter
When you see a leaf fall to the ground
Think of me
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When you raise your face to the sunshine
When you notice spring flowers all around
Think of me
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For I will always be there with you
I’ll know of your sorrows and pain
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Think of me as your guardian angel
Through days of dark clouds and rain
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Think of me in all that you do
For I’ll always be there to carry you through
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Think of me
I am always there.
Linda Treinen.
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~xx~with love always Gael.~xx~
♥ Angel Listen please ♥
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♥When I want to talk to you
It's usually when i am alone
I whisper words quietly at first
and then I'll change my tone.
For I want to speak out Loudly
For you my Angel to hear
how much your loved and missed by us
Every day of the year ♥
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♥ Lisa Heritage ♥
~~~~~TO A PRECIOUS ANGEL~~~~~
❤
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ƠƑ ƳƠƲ ƜӇƠ MЄƛƝƬ SƠ ƔЄƦƳ MƲƇӇ
ƛƝƊ ƬӇЄ ӇƛƤƤƖƝЄSS ƳƠƲ ƁƦƠƲƓӇƬ.
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ƖƬ ƜƖԼԼ ƝЄƔЄƦ ƑƛƊЄ ƛƜƛƳ,
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ƳƠƲ ƛƦЄ ƜƖƬӇ MЄ.
ЄƔЄƦƳ MƠMЄƝƬ ƠƑ ƬӇЄ ƊƛƳ
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~xx~with love always Gael.~xx~
25/1/2012.
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★ Night Time ★
A Shooting star
Fly's through the sky,
The Moon is Beaming,
Way up High.
The Darkness
Falls all around,
The Night Sky
appears without a sound
The stars begin Twinkling
out some Light,
and our Angels are
Keeping us in there Sight
By Lisa Heritage
✗... ԼƠƔЄ ♥ ƛԼƜƛƳS ...✗.... elaine & Baby Ryan xo
~~~~~TO A PRECIOUS ANGEL~~~~~
The flutter of your wings
~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~* ~♥x♥~ *~♥x♥~
Sometimes when I'm very quiet
I can hear "The Flutter Of Your Wings"
The sound is like music to my ears
and it makes my heart sing
*~♥x♥~
When loneliness and emptiness
bring not a sound to hear
You know exactly what I need
as you flutter past my ear
*~♥x♥~
Sometimes when I'm very still
I can almost feel "The Flutter Of Your Wings"
Their feathery touch is like magic
and much peace and comfort it brings
*~♥x♥~
When I am left with no one
to hug or hold on to
You gently wrap me in your wings
and your love I feel is true
*~♥x♥~
Sometimes when I am all alone
and against the distant sky
I can almost see "The Flutter Of Your Wings"
It brings a tear of happiness to my eye
*~♥x♥~
When I look around and find not a soul
who cares if I live or die
You flutter your wings up in the clouds
and I find comfort in the sky
*~♥x♥~
You are my Guardian Angel
and when I hear, feel and see
This means you are close by my side
and are watching over me
*~♥x♥~
Sometimes when I feel so alone
you remind me that I'm loved
My angel sent down from heaven
with much love from up above
*~♥x♥~
The love and closeness I sense from you
is all the reassurance I need
That I am someone very special
and I will follow where you lead
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Copyright � March 2001 Island Princess
~xx~with love always Gael.~xx~
♥ Peace-Maker ♥
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Lord can i be your mediator
and send messages from above,
Letting our GoneTooSoon friends know
there Angels send all their Love
I know they need to here this
it would be a perfect way
Cus not having our Angels here with us
we are hurting almost every day!
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~♥ With Love ♥~
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Think of me
When you walk out into the cold wind of winter
When you see a leaf fall to the ground
Think of me
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When you raise your face to the sunshine
When you notice spring flowers all around
Think of me
═ೋღ♥ღೋ══
For I will always be there with you
I’ll know of your sorrows and pain
═ೋღ♥ღೋ══
Think of me as your guardian angel
Through days of dark clouds and rain
═ೋღ♥ღೋ══
Think of me in all that you do
For I’ll always be there to carry you through
═ೋღ♥ღೋ══
Think of me
I am always there.
Linda Treinen.
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~xx~with love always Gael.~xx~
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Dear God Up Above Please Give The Beautful Angels these Hearts With All My Love xx
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ♥
I Will Be Waiting
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ♥
My precious one, you’ve gone to be
With our Saviour in Heaven above.
But I’ll be waiting for our next embrace
And hold your hand with love.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
God chose to take you ahead of me
And sadness still fills my heart.
But someday we will be joined again
And never again shall we part.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
I know you’re in God’s hands right now
With no pain, or sorrow to bear.
For you’re in a place of peace and love,
Of which I look forward to share.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
Your face I see when I close my eyes
And sometimes there’s a tear or two.
But because I’m only human dear,
It’s my wanting to be with you.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
I will be strong, and live my life
Until God calls me home.
Then meet me at those Golden Gates
Where God, is by His throne.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
yes, I shall be waiting
On that glorious day to arrive
With you and Jesus by my side
It is then, I will feel alive.
♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ ♥ڿڰۣಌ
~xx~with love always Gael.~xx~
Ruth Ann Mahaffey
�copyright 2004
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